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A Childlike Approach

to adulthood

Created on 2006-08-16 21:06:27 (#10928904), last updated 2008-01-07

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Name:	cre8ivedestruct
Location:	Hayesville, North Carolina, United States

Bio

I'm just a girl who loves to exsist.

I graduated with honors, but that seems to be a meaningless accomplishment.

I work, a lot.

Name: Carlena Starr Owenby

Nicknames: Lena, Sweet Basil, Baby-Girl

Age: 20

Birthday: January 22

Occupation: Banquet Manager! w00t

Height: 5'3-ish"

Weight: 119-finally

Hair color: red dredlocks, currently--- naturally brown.

Eye color: Hazel.

Family: Large, and extended

Hobbies: reading, writing, running, yoga, and watching bad TV

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Someone once told me that I needed to put more "personal" stuff on my user info page. My opinion is that if you are interested, you'll pursue me. That is why the message button is there.

In the mean time... I will drop a bit of info/insight.

I have gone through a great deal of change in the past year. My outlook on life has changed, and I think I can be happy for once. Until five or six years ago I was a devout chirstian. But to me, there are so many flaws in the ways of the church, undoubtedly because it is run by man (as in humans, not males... although, both would suffice) and because of the contradictory writing found inside the Bible. I believe that it is one thing to have faith in a divine being and another to place a false interest in a higher power. I don't care what religion or denomination you affiliate yourself with; I'll treat you just the same.
After that stage of my life, I became your average depressive teenager who hated everything. I played the part of the masochistic goth girl, but still insisted on proving to everyone that I could make something of myself. Now I am relaxed, nature-loving, and happy. I have been called a "tree-hugger" and a "hippie." I'm neither. I'm just me.

Life has taken a turn, it has smacked me in my ass, and I like it. LOL. I'm making it on my own. Slowly, but surely, my life is starting to unfold and really be my own. I'm living by my own rules. I am living for my self. I'm unsure where I will go in my life, or what I will do, but I intend to do it with a smile on my face. I've found a great niche. *happy sigh*

I have known love more than once in my life, so I feel privileged---and cursed. Love while it lasts is euphoric... but when it comes to a crashing halt... it seems to rip you apart with no mercy. That is how I felt, for some time. I enjoy my love, and how it has treated me lately... it hurts sometimes, because it makes the distance that much further.

It is possible that love can conquer all, or at least all the shitty feelings. Is it back?

to add to this, i must say that love is surprising. It always seems to catch me off guard and I like its little surprises.

♥-- add me if you’d like

♥-- from this point on, my journal is semi-personal, so the format of writing will be different... please know that..

♥-- comment in my journal telling me that you added me, sometimes I forget to check.

♥-- My journal is Friends Only now- if you do not have LJ- comment anon. and I’ll give you a code you can use to read my journal..